Friday, October 06, 2006
[*cHoi.Ce$*] ...life is full of choices. everywhere, everyday, you have to make choices. and for some, these decisions are life-changing. as i'm thinking what else to blog for this entry, it suddenly struck me, i'm not actually sure at all, what i'm doing with my life. i'm not sure at all if this is what i want, but now, i'm still living in another world of my own. i'm not sure if i wanted the college life, i'm not sure if i'll regret the decision of going to a JC. i'm scared, i'm scared that i might regret choosing this path, i'm afraid of the outcome.
college life is so tough. whoever told you that college life is fun or cool, don't ever believe them. it's the most trying part of my life that i'm going through now. and currently, i'm thinking how my life would be had i choose a poly life instead. but you know, since i made the choice of going to a JC, i'm not gonna give up halfway. i never once gave up anything without giving my all. but then again, in JC, it's so tough to even give your all, cos everything is so tiring.
i'll never give up, since i choose this path, i'll do whatever i have to do to succeed in this path. cos at the end of my college journey, i'll come out as a stronger person who can take hardships and be stretched beyond my limit. i'll be a better person, but in the process, i'll have to go through difficult times and less sleep and excessive stress levels are what i'll be encountering. how i wish life could be easier, but life was never meant to be easy.
i guess God placed me in CJC for a reason. though i still do not know the reason, i guess He's doing this for my own good. i'll just have to have faith and believe in His plans for me. let Him take the lead and i'll follow. with my hand in His, i'll never be lost in such an uncertain situation. i'll be alright and He'll never let me go through anything that is not within my capacity as a person who has been brought up in my situation and environment. He knows what's best for me.
i really hope i'll not regret choosing this path. i just wanna do so well that i'll be glad that i made the choice to go JC and i made the RIGHT choice. that's what that matters to me right now, making the right decision to stay in JC to succeed. i am capable of that. then, after all that is said and done, i'll be done with my As and off to a foreign land for a vacation with my friend(s). yup. i'm just hoping this would happen. i'll do my best to let this happen. i'll have faith that God will let this happen. it's gonna be alright.
love,
cheryn ...
posted at 10/06/2006 08:39:00 pm
